20160126 – Kärlek

For quite some time,
you were out of reach,
you were hard to find,
you were invisible.

For a moment there,
I was on the bench,
I was only to observe,
I was invisible.

For quite some time,
the coffee went cold,
the lights were shut,
the walls were high.

For a moment there,
the cave was hollow,
the birds were silent,
the leaves didn’t fall.

As time went on,
red turns green,
people were busy,
a yellow umbrella walked by.

As time went on,
the windows closed down
and a door opens.
Gotham ain’t so dark after all.

20141002 – Uniform

In rivers of the Nile,

a sordid stream flows –

a succulent grass thrives

with roots of splendor below.

In rivers of the Nile,

filth and mud surrounds

defiled soil – so unwavering

a viridescent sod still stands.

A cascade, both

unclean and pristine

charged to that of which – a sea;

The deep embraces her;

The deep ushers her.

Within the twisted mesh,

she finds a rewarding

Home.

20140812 – Sakyan Mo Lang, Lutang Eh

Props & credits to projectkups for the photo. http://instagram.com/projectkups

Nang ganun ganun lang, nasagasaan yung bata, patay,  kasi tumawid siya habang may mga nagraragasang sasakyan.
Nang ganun ganun lang, tuluyan nang nasakop ng mga banyagang Kastila ang bansa.
Nang ganun ganun lang, biglang pasok mo na naman sa medyo weird na existence nung mga imaginations ko.

Patunay na ang mga bagay at pagkakataon ay inde natin kontrolado. Minsan may mga driver na matitigas ang ulo at magmamadali kahit kulay red yung ilaw sa stoplight. Minsan kahit anong iwas at laban ang gawin natin para di matuto mag-siesta, eh sadyang mas makapangyarihan lang talaga nung unang panahon ang España. Minsan kahit ayaw mo sa mga nangyayari, kung yun yung tinakda pwes wala ka nang magagawa. Tanggapin mo na lang kung ano ang nakahain sa mesa care of kung sino mang Bathala ang may hawak sa kapalaran. Andyan na yan eh, kahit anong tulak papalayo ang gawin mo dyan, pag yan yung para sayo. Yan na yun.

Okay na ba yung intro? Panalo na ba? Osha, rekta na tayo sa main topic. 😉


Sakto. Nung biglang pikit ng mga mata ko kagabi, hindi ko akalaing tubig ang sasalubong sakin pagkatapos nung ilang minuto na panay blackness lang ang nakikita mo. Usually kasi, panay kakahuyan at damuhan ang nakikita ko sa mga panaginip ko. Ni hindi nga ako marunong lumangoy tapos ultimo panaginip ko ba dapat eh nasa ilalim ng dagat? Anong klaseng kashit-an naman yun di ba? I mean, ano yung point? Sign ba yun para lalo akong mahikayat na magaral talaga kung papano lumangoy? Talagang di ako pinalad sa talent na yun eh. Sorry na.

Anyway, yun nga. So dun sa 3rd or 4th or 78th dimension na narating ko, hindi na kailangan pa ng mga kung ano anong scuba gear. Hindi ako tumira ng kung anong droga at hindi ko alam kung papano napadpad sa utak ko yan, sadyang wala sa hulog ang mga imaginations ko, epekto ata yan ng maagang pagkamulat sa mga libro. Pero gaya nga ng sabi ko, dun sa lugar na yun, kahit ang pinagyayabang mong talent sa paglangoy, walang kwenta yan. Nakakayang maglakbay sa ilalim ng dagat na para bang lumilipad lang ako sa kalawakan. Ang cool ko managinip eh nu? Ngayon hindi ko alam kung applicable ba yun sa lahat ng mga tauhan dun sa panaginip ko, pero in this case, ako lang andun eh. Ako lang ang may dalawang paa at dalawang kamay. Ako lang ang tao. Napapaligiran ako ng mga isda at seaweeds at kung ano ano pang mga sea creatures. Napipicture out mo na ang scenario? Magtitiwala ako sa imaginations mo ah. Kung papano ang itsura nung setting na nasa isipan mo, tama! Ganyan na ganyan yung kinalagyan kong Wonderland, yun eh kung ang pangalan ko ay Alice. Kaso inde at pauso lang ako para madagdagan lang ang word count ko dito. HAHAHAH. Apir!

Isipin mo ikaw ako at pinalad ka na mapadpad sa lugar na kung saan ay matic may gills ka na, ano gagawin mo? Syempre mamamasyal ka diba? Sight seeing to the max? Natural yan ang unang pumasok sa kokote ko. Sa kaibuturan ng isipan ko, pagkakataon ko na yun para literal na makita ang shipwreck ng Titanic. HAHAHA. Para di mo isipin na ang swapang kong tao, ise-share ko ang nakita ko. Nako ma’am at sir, iba po pala talaga pag sa personal. Palong palo sa laki eh!

Ayan ah. Wag na wag mong ipapamukha saken na swapang ako ah. Sabe nga ni Nick Fury kay Captain America sa pinakabago nilang pelikula, “You’re wrong about me Cap. I do share. I’m nice like that.”, at since nabigyan na kita ng konting spoilers sa kung gaano kaangas ang Titanic pag in person, bumalik na tayo sa point nito. So yun nga, nung busy ako magpalaboy laboy sa gitna ng karagatan at nagfi-feeling Poseidon, di ko maiwasang di pansinin. Andame pala talagang isda eh nu? Siguro kung nadadamihan ka na sa tao na around 7 billion na daw ayon sa recent studies, mga doble pa o triple nun yung bilang ng mga isda. As in. Samu’t sari na ang klase! May mga maliit, may mga malaki, may mga normal, may iba na akala mo eh bato at sa may buhangin lang talaga sila tumatambay. Syempre, may mga shark na di ata ako nakikita, which makes it awesome, kasi syempre ayokong mapagpyestahan ako nung mga yun at baka paghati hatiin nila ang katawan ko, kahit pa na panaginip lang to eh mainam na ang umiwas. Napanood ko po yung Jaws kaya medyo takot tayo dyan. Syempre may balyena pa, may mga pagi, may mga pugita at pusit pa. At yung pinakapanalo eh yung mga school of fish, and cool nila tignan eh. Cute na cool. Grabe, andame pala talaga nating namimiss kung takot tayong mag scuba diving. Sa pagsisid lang kasi nawi-witness yung mga ganitiong beauty of the ocean eh. (Note to self: Magaral lumangoy in reality, para di na ko matakot pang sumisid at magscuba diving.)


Windang na windang ang mga mata ko sa nakikita ko. Busog sila parehas eh. Partida, inde pa ko ganun ka-appreciative pagdating sa nature ah. Pero panalo kasi talaga eh.

Sa pagkamangha ko, biglaan kong naisip, “totoo kaya ang mga sirena?”

Odeh andun na ko diba? Natural i-checheck ko na yun. Baka di na maulit yung bisita ko sa Dreamwater (di ata applicable yung Dreamland eh) eh. Nalimutan ko nga palang banggitin, sa ilang minuto o oras na nasa Dreamwater ako. May tour guide pala akong dolphin na nakakapagsalita ng normal at nakakaintindihan ko, tawag ko sa kanya eh Browser. Para cool dba?

So inalalayan ako ni Browser at since sabi nya, totoo nga raw ang mga sirena, agad agad kameng naghanap para makakita man lang ako ng isa  bago mamaalam diba? Sayang naman ang pagkakataon. May tinagal din ang pagiikot namen around the ocean deep anggang sa may nadatnan kaming isa. At ang reaction ko sa nakita ko?

“Bwisit! Chx!”

Kingina! Napabilib ako eh! Chx na chx! Hawig ni Gianna Jun eh, tapos pula yung buntot nya. Medyo mahaba ang buhok. Nung madatnan namen eh kumakanta pa siya, at syempre dun sa panaginip ko, (kasi ako boss dun) aba aba ang ganda ng boses! Eargasm! Nakakabighani lang ng wagas eh. Sa dinami dami ng nakita ko dun sa kokonting oras na namalagi ako sa Dreamwater, Tragis! Walang sinabi yung mga isda at iba pang sea creatures na yan sa sirenang krass ko. Totoo paps, totoo yung kasabihan na, “There’s plenty of fish in the sea, so don’t settle until you find a fucking mermaid.” Bakit ka nga ba magse-settle sa simpleng clownfish ngayong alam mo na, na totoo nga ang mga sirena diba? Bonus points pag nagkataong may hawig ke Gianna Jun yung sirenang matagpuan mo. May halo mang magic na nakakapanglinlang ng mga kalalakihan ang makita sila gaya nung mga Veela sa Harry Potter Series, eh wala akong pakialam! Isa lang masasabi ko, di mo nakita yung nakita ko eh. Kaya wag kang epal dyan. Lakas tama lang eh nu? Saka si Fleur Delacour din naman kahit Veela yun eh mabaet kaya siya. HAHAHA. Malay mo mabaet yung sirenang nakita ko diba? Bonus points ulet kapag kalog at nakakasundo mo. Yan pa naman kelangan ko sa buhay. Ang kokonting sass at kalog para di tayo masyadong seryoso. 🙂

Lalapit sana ako sa kanya eh. Actually palapit na talaga ako nun. Napansin siguro nya na may turistang di taong dagat na papunta sa kanya kasama ang abnormal na dolphin at bigla na lang siya lumangoy papalayo. Ambilis. Di ko na naabutan pa. Nahiya siguro. Di ata sya sanay sa attention. Sabi saken ni Browser, hanapin daw namin at tutulong naman daw siya. Oo naman ako, kaso wala na talaga eh. Hindi na namen makita pa. Lalo pa’t may specific mermaid na talaga ngayon at hindi na pa-random random  lang ang hinahanap. Di naglaon eh sumuko na rin kame. Nagtago na ata talaga si Gianna Jun mermaid version eh. Atleast may pagbabasehan na ako kapag sinapian ako ng kaluluwa ni Davy Jones at naisipan kong mamingwit ng sirena sa reality. Atleast ngayon diba? Pag napadpad ulet ako sa Dreamwater, alam ko na ang una kong hahanapin. Atleast, narrowed na yung search kahit papano. Atleast kahit hindi ko na ma-text pa si Browser sa aking shellphone eh magagawa ko nang magikot at maghanap sa kanya ng magisa. Tapos nun alam na, i-dedate kita Miss Sirena. Steady ka lang dyan. 😉


Sa gitna nung pagiikot at paghahanap namen kay Gianna Jun mermaid version sa Dreamwater, sinubukan ko pang magtanong tanong ng mga bagay bagay kay Browser kagaya na lang nung katotohanan nung Loch Ness Monster at Ctulhu ni H.P. Lovecraft . Laking disappointment ko nung sabihin saken ni Browser na kahit pala sa panaginip, eh di sila totoo. Tapos para makapanigurado lang, umextra pa ko ng dalawa pa at sinubukan na ring itanong kung totoo ba si Moby Dick or yung Nautilus ni Captain Nemo. Kaso dagdag disappointment ulit nung sabihin niyang inde rin. Kahit yung Atlantis, di rin daw pala totoo yun at pauso lang nung mga tao sa ibabaw. Ganun pa man eh, sulit na rin ang bisita ko sa Dreamwaters. Nawindang din naman ako sa kagandahan nung mga nakita ng mata ko. Napabilib at na-amaze. Natuwa at nagka-crush sa isang sirena, kahit pa na tinakbuhan at tumakas din siya nung di magtagal. Yun yung inalok saken eh. Yun yung nakahain sa mesa. Yun tung tinimpla at niluto nung Bathala ng kapalaran, specifically para saken. Yun na yun eh. Mga tao nga naman talaga, oo. Hindi na lang talaga tayo makuntento eh nu? Lahat tayo ganyan. Ganyan tayo eh. Human nature na naten yung mag-asam pa ng mas ikakaligaya o ikakatuwa natin, medyo conceited, medyo makasarili. Lagi na lang dapat may “mas” bago ang kung ano mang adjective or adverb ang maisip mong gamitin sa gitna ng pangungusap. Dapat nakakalamang parati. Ayaw patalo. Uulitin ko, yan tayo eh. Kahinaan na naten yan. Normal yan. Apir!

20140720 – Can I Get An Awful Lot of These? It’s All Chirpy Dreams and The World Seems Right

I dreamt about you!

Yes! I meant you lady. It was great, a bit weird though but great. It was brilliant actually, it has been awhile since I have had a few of smiles and delightful start for a day. You were shining there, loud and full of sass but shining. I haven’t even met you yet and here’s my mind going off like ticking time bomb making up wild imaginations about you in my dreams. I don’t know why because clearly, the rule that states “You miss someone that’s why you dream about them.” – it does not apply in this situation. How in the sane world would I be missing you when I haven’t even met you yet? Enough of the why’s though, the more we’d wallow upon it, the more complex this thing gets. Point is, I dreamt about you and it was extraordinary.

I can’t really remember how it all came to map out in my mind. I can’t really remember how it all began. For some unknown reason, roughly a few hours before waking up, there were quite a few scenes – actually there’s just one, that manifested in my imagination. It was loud. A little gathering of friends. Very loud actually – it was in this little lounge and people were just way too energetic in the morning.

And there you were. “I Can’t Fight This Feeling Anymore” by Reo Speedwagon was playing when you crossed my peripheral view. It was as if Tinkerbell and her crew drew a line of pixie dust to pave a path on where you would be walking on. And with grace, you entered the scene, shining brighter than anyone. It probably has a lot to do with the whole lighting effect of this scene though, next time I’ll be dreaming of you, I shall consult with the director first and tell him not to make you look more like a weird shining alien and less like an angelic ethereal person. You need not to worry about that. 😉

Don’t mind the paragraph before this one, it was clearly a failed attempt to be funny and a little sweet with the whole metaphors and stuff like that. Anyway, as I was saying, there you were. For real though, you were quite prominent from the whole scene that was going on. You were wearing these red shoes, a dark sundress printed with little aztecs all over it, your hair was up on a bun, wrists filled with rubber bracelets I can never understand, and you were loud. Noisy loud.

You were comfortable with everything. You were comfortable even to me. For some wild reason you were running after me, because I think I did something to annoy you. We were on this chase as if I was a robber and you were a cop. You were shouting words to me, one’s I can’t quite make out now in my memories. I was howling my own response in the way of laughs. A few of your friends were there, being cheerfully jovial with what they’re seeing or probably minding their own businesses and do what normal girlfriends do – then we all fade into oblivion. It was a great scene. It was a great memory. It was a minute of lightheartedness and pleasure. It’s one I haven’t had for a long time – up around the corners of my otherworldly sense of imagination that  makes up my dreams, to be honest it used to be always something that involves dinosaurs or sharks or crows and cows. Seriously, I told you, I get weird dreams a lot.

In a way, like what was previously stated, this little dream I just had about you, it’s one for the books. It’s one I shall remember for a long time. It’s one I should be thankful for – to whatever being gave me the inspiration so I could acquire this achievement. In a way, you’re also one I should be thankful for, if it weren’t for you Miss, I would have lost a great lead actress on that short clip, right?

As I end this entry, allow me to wish you good luck yes? Here’s to all your endeavors and dreams. May they all come factual. May God shower you all His blessing in this world and beyond. You are an awesome lady who’s quite enough smart to take on the world, well at least that’s what I seem to notice in the few times I get to talk to you. Once again, good luck. In my count there’s two of them now, so keep the other one in your pocket for rainy days yes? 😉

 

20140508 – Watson

She just stood there, she’s absolutely riveted.
She could not wander off.
She could not escape.

Gradually, the rain falls down.
A somber weather, to which she frown.
The disheartening thought of being in between,
what seems to be right and wrong now isn’t clear.

For a moment there,
the Aurora lights were up and shining.
For  a moment there,
joie de vivre would not stop playing.
For a moment there,
the battle waged does not last.
But that’s the difference of all this is,
for all the said happy moments happened too fast.

She just stood there, she’s absolutely riveted.
She could not wander off.
She could not escape – it.